The next few days will be challenging, and so I am going to take a break from writing. Today I just fell off the edge of grief into a puddle of tears. It did not help that I woke this morning with very little vision in my right eye. I saw an opthamologist this afternoon and all his testing was inconclusive. He wants me to wait a few days before we search any further for a cause. At this point I think it may just be from all the stress. There is a very serious history of macular degeneration in my family but that does not seem to be a cause in my case.
The hospital was not able to get Dad stable enough to move him to the nursing home this week as planned. I await news on him tonight. Worry about him hovers in my mind, moving back and forth from front to back as LM and I prepare to attend Bob's wake and funeral this weekend.
So my third eye vision tells me I better take a break, rest and try to meditate to regain my composure. I had a complete meltdown of tears while visiting with LM after the eye appointment. I actually stopped by to see him for a very nice reason, other than the fact that he is an angel.....one of our very dear friends sent flowers to us today in honor of Bob....a beautiful arrangement of spring flowers and even some hydrangeas! He was thrilled to have them and we set them in the center of Bob's antique mahogany dining room table. THANK YOU, Nan!! We love you!
I'll be back and wish everyone peace and love.