Friday, February 6, 2009
5 degrees here this morning.....a golden/pink glow is lighting up the view out my window of Oyster Pond. Many birds at the feeder and the cardinals are so lovely, perching on the frozen privet branches as they await their turn at the feeder. Trying to take myself to July when the privet blooms and the scent fills my rooms. Not successful, though, as I cannot seem to penetrate the cold outside, inside and deeper, still, in my mind. I seem to be numb right now. Have I just shut down?
Am I just plain tired of fighting the fight to keep my sanity while so many I love and care about are suffering and fighting their own battle to cope?
Once, again, a rally must prevail and work beckons successfully. After all, I just need to look out the window and see all the little birds industriously feeding and preparing themselves for their survival on this frigid winter day.
Bob may be discharged today but we know not where he will go....could be home, or a nursing facility. LM will find out this morning. I do not know how LM can continue to do the home care. Scary.