I'm not sure about others, but my mind certainly starts to whirl when I have a trip coming up. Being a fairly organized person, and a list maker, I try to make a note whenever thoughts pop into my mind about things we will need along the way, etc., but as the date draws close now (Nov 4, 3 am), the thoughts begin to mesh into one and I can feel the up tempo in my body, mind and spirit. Some good and some bad, to be honest. Checklists are now whirling in my brain, and I start getting into LM's ability to think for himself as far as his to do list for the trip...bad, bad. He is always well-prepared when we leave for a trip. Once in awhile, I bring myself up short by asking those critters in my brain,"what is the worst that can happen"...REALLY, if I forget something, I can just go buy whatever I need, and the computer will be with me, so whatever tickets I need for Discovery Cove and Busch Gardens can be downloaded easily.
CRAZY, I am! I really have issues with time.....getting close to a date, an event, an appointment, I am always so worried about things being exactly right, that I make myself very stressed, and those around me as well. It is subtle but really annoying to me and others. LM being a very patient man, knows this about me and it even gets to him, too.
In actuality, everything is very ready for the trip right now. As needs have arisen, they have been addressed, and I will do a practice run of packing a very SMALL suitcase next week sometime.
I think I needed to write this out in order to stop, or at least slowdown, the whirling in my mind....thanks for listening.
This trip promises to be one of a lifetime and to know that we will be bringing such delight and fulfilling a 30+ year dream for Kristi (LM's 41 year old developmentally disabled daughter), is happiness personified. We will all be seeing some very interesting and beautiful places for the first time in our lives, plus sharing time with other loved ones.
Now it is time to put all my effort into letting go of the lists, lighten up and get into my "happy to be on the road" mindset. I think I can do it!