Good Morning From Ms. Graysea

"I am waiting for my treats, and if I look cute enough, I know she will open the package."
Ms. G gets me with the power of positive thinking and actions EVERY time. If I was only as smart as she is, my life would be even more amazing.

Cat Life

Ah, to be able to spend the day following the sun around the house.....the above precious furry one is my grandcat "Ms Bella". She lives in sunny Florida with my oldest daughter so has way more sun to enjoy than we do in MA. She has mastered the technique of relaxation and is also adept at keeping her humans at her beck and call. My daughter claims that Bella herds everyone around so that each and every desire is filled promptly, ie. treats, food, water (running fresh at all times, of course).
Ms. Graysea also has this human well in control, being very forceful about when, what and how she would like her treats served, her fresh water run, and when it is time for me to become a cat couch. Bella and Graysea are wily critters, most of all for the way they have captured our hearts.

We often comment that it must be a gray cat gene but then I have known many other wonderful cats in my day, and life would not be complete without a furry presence to tell me what to do!

Under, Over and in the Weather

Sinus problems from seasonal allergies leveled me last week. It became a productive knitting time and gave Ms. Graysea lots of lap time, although she did have to compete with knitting needles. Just working on a fun fur scarf, nothing elaborate, just pretty and fun. Missed the office Christmas party.

Being 5 months out from a total knee replacement, each day is a new experience as my body adapts to its new titanium part. It feels especially strange when the weather gets very cold. There is an amazing feeling of strength in the new knee, though. It finds me out in all sorts of weather pushing myself to walk more each day. 3 miles is now nothing, yet it seems like yesterday that I could only walk a few feet from my front steps. Guess, I have weathered that storm, although it was one of my biggest challenges to date.

Now it is on to facing my Mom's birthday and the anniversary of her death. I must also help my father past these dates...they are less than 24 hour apart and on the week of Christmas. It will pass quickly but Dad's pain, although unexpressed, is palpable. For Dad there is little relief until the date passes.
A year ago Friday, a very strange storm struck this little corner of Cape Cod. It was a combination of a hurricane, blizzard and tornado. Many 1000's of trees were uprooted. On a relatively balmy December afternoon I was watching a rainbow out my office window and within seconds it became black as night, trees began flying through the air and blinding snow appeared. The storm lasted for several hours, took out power for many days and blocked roads. The next morning, I drove almost two hours to my Dad's where I knew there would be power and warmth, only to find him nearly unconscious and in kidney failure. He spent several scary weeks in the hospital, but his strong spirit prevailed both storms and he is here with us a year later. What an incredible life! That storm in his life spared him the anniversary dates last year as he was on medication which kept him sedated. Back to reality this year.
Weathering these little storms is what life is all about and the wind can fill my sails to continue the journey, if I keep my eyes focused on the fact that this is all part of a larger plan.

A Lovely White Shawl

Winter paid a visit to this lovely place today and gave us a 2 hour snowstorm with huge beautiful flakes, leaving a beautiful lacy shawl on the rhododendrons outside my office window.
Everyone seemed so happy to see the snow and there were numerous exclamations of joy that winter has finally come in time for Christmas parties and other seasonal events. 3 days ago it was 70 degrees!

Snow was more beautiful than ever today, in fact everything was enhanced by the happiness I feel. Of course, Ms. Graysea senses something and has been clingier than ever. Knitting is interfering with HER lap time and it is not going over well. We all need love.

Out here on this elbow of Cape Cod MA, this is a very common scene. Summer/Fall seems to last so long. Yesterday, I walked at lunch, through a small unassuming neighborhood, behind my office, and was just amazed at the warmth of the sun, but even more so at all the flowers still to be enjoyed. Many roses, tiny white flowers on smoke bushes, mums and even a few hydrangeas which are still blue, were along the way. We are almost surrounded by water on all sides here and it does set us up to have lots of fog but it is a lovely filter for the overwhelming beauty.
That walk just inspired a few lines. Grateful I can see it, as so many who live here don't even notice.

Settling and Trying to End on Cape Cod

Having dinner with an elderly neighbor last evening provoked an interesting conversation about how so many of us end up out here on this beautiful arm of land. We both ended up here because of romantic memories of childhood and teenaged visits to the beaches and beauty. Somehow hoping to recapture those idyllic times, we got husbands to move here, only to find that it may be wonderful for a time but life changes, jobs are scarce and when a partner is gone, it is the loneliest place, even more so, when age makes getting around difficult. My neighbor is so lonely and so far from children and many friends have died. Her husband was the much loved manager of the building where I work and he became part of our work family, so after he died, we continued to be friends with his wife. Twenty years separate us in age but we have so much to talk about and share. Last night we laughed and we cried together...it seems she is just now beginning to feel the grief of her husband's death two years ago. She probably should move closer to a son or a daughter but it would mean leaving all the familiar places and giving up the bit of autonomy she has left. It is almost as if she waited too long to make a move. Should there be more of a plan in place for our later years? It is not always possible to do that.
Having been bankrupted by failed marriages, I find myself in this beautiful place, having to work full-time(not that I do not LOVE my job) to keep afloat. Living in "shangri-la" is expensive, fantastic and very scary alone. I worry about being a burden to my children.
If I have the possibility of starting a new life with someone do I risk it? My neighbor has gone beyond that option.

Shadows in the Moonlight

Beautiful weekend here, and much of it enjoyed outside on long walks. Saturday, was a day of several great walks. The first walk was at Fort Hill in Eastham which is part of the Cape Cod National Seashore. The trail begins on a high hill with a very dramatic ocean view across a lovely marsh and inlets, resplendent in a Fall mantel of rust and gold. The air was so clear and beautiful; many brilliant red berries and cedars with lovely blue berries; pampas grass rustled in the wind at the edge of the marsh. The trail leads from open fields, to a deep forest of cedars, out to another clearing with ocean views, back to a boardwalk which winds for a long while over a red cedar swamp, then back up a steep hilly forest to the fields again. I surprised a red tailed hawk who was searching for lunch. A very beautiful place, all set off by the roar of the open ocean and a surprise around every corner. Each season is a thrill there, especially the wildflowers in the summer.
Headed up the road to see friends in Truro and then on to Provincetown for a lovely waterfront lunch....chicken fajita roll-up with sweet potato fries!

Back to Chatham, walked for three miles through the village in the moonlit evening. Beautiful shadows from the ancient trees and homes.

Jason (one and only son) delivered two dressers to me today to replace my old broken-leg poor excuse for a dresser. The new ones are from my Dad's house. They are all in place and filled. Memories of Mama flooded my mind as I polished them and placed my things where hers had been so recently. How much I wish I could talk to her....I still do it anyway on a daily basis but it is not the same.

Now it is on to Christmas plans and they seem to be shaping up nicely to be held at Jason's. Alison and I are already plotting menu ideas.
Time to give Ms G her treats and go to bed....back to reality and work tomorrow.
Need to work on knitting! Many orders for scarves and I still want to make many more washcloths.