Friday, July 1, 2011


Hello Everyone....
Happy Independence Day weekend. May you have rest, fun, yummy foods, fun and fireworks.
We are coasting, coping and living in the moment here. Not sure I like the feeling but there is happiness, calm and acceptance. There have been long talks, honesty and gardening and over the weekend I will try to post photos of the garden John and I created for LM to enjoy as he turns the corner into his street. We are making the best of a bad situation.
My need for rotator cuff surgery is pressing and painful, but I am not in an emotional state to have it done, not to mention that I cannot take the necessary time off from work without the abject fear of being replaced (this concern is most likely only alive in my head, nonetheless, my intuition is crystal clear in most matters). Meanwhile, I manage the pain and get little sleep as it is much worse when I lay down.
LM is coping by spending more and more time fishing the beaches and the canal. He's had a great time this year testing the merits of his newly invented floating plugs to catch striped bass. He's relishing in the success of his design and some great press in the local paper. His classes have been very well-attended this summer, as well. He's found his way to cope. I'm still lost a lot in a vacuum. Not accomplishing much except a deep purge of possessions and a thorough cleaning out of cupboards in my house and recycling items no longer used. I've also been reading more, and have spent considerable time revamping my eating patterns with a focus on whole foods, as well as getting in more protein. That is a struggle for me but the efforts make a difference.
Vanessa has made a nearly complete recovery from her near-fatal accident. Her jaw has healed very well and fairly soon she will be able to drive again. WHEW. I am certain that the thoughts and prayers of many were part of her miracle.
Teddy and Samantha are having a great summer so far with lots of outdoor fun. We will see Teddy next weekend.
As I head off to one more day of work before the 3-day weekend, I just wanted to say hello, and let everyone know you are in my thoughts always and that I wish you a great 4th!
To my dear sister, El.....we are all thinking about you and awaiting good news post surgery today.


Anonymous said...

Thank you for the wonderful Card! I was thrilled to receive and it is sitting on my desk to be read and reread. I worry about you and your shoulder. Glad to read you are trying to eat more protien. Am anxious to see the garden you and John are making. Hope your weekend is full of fun. Not sure if we're doing anything. Making ice cream I know and probably having a bar-b-que one day. Don't have much planned. I am feeling better about Cooper leaving, but still miss him. Esp. when I come in the house. Nobody to greet me...and the empty pink chair at night is not fun to look at. I'm going to move it today to some other place.
Have a great weekend my sweet friend!! ...debbie

judemiller1 said...

Sorry you have been struggling--the pain effects us emotionally too. Worry about being replaced on the job if you take time off--perhaps feeling you are getting too old for the company and they will try and oust you? It DID happen to me. Hoping you can find some rest this weekend and peace in your life. Glad Vanessa is doing so well.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

So pleased to see an update.
Have missed your sharing.
You are on the right track
in every way.
One day at a time.
May you be Happy, Well, Safe and at Peace.

Retired English Teacher said...

It is good to see a post again. I'm sorry for the struggles and the hard times of which it seems you have more than your share. You appear to making adjustments and practicing acceptance for the way things are. Take care of yourself.

tigger642005 said...

Mama, glad to see you on here I just wish you were not in so much pain. Love you and hope you have a great weekend. give me a call when you get a chance to get together. Samantha sends XOXO