I'm still here, thinking of you all, and dealing with a bit of exhaustion, frustration, and winter lethargy.
This blog's namesake is working overtime right now to keep LM and I going. We are rowing hard as the tide keeps trying to wash us out to sea. Our darling, Ms G, throws us an anchor with her sweet and silly antics, her times when she just sits and gazes at us with adoration (well, it might be another reason, but we choose to believe it is adoration, love and support!)
The program John attends has not offered one iota of help. It is just a place he is housed and guarded 5 days a week. He chooses, as of today, not to ask for some help which could be available.
We've given up our sweet life to help, and it feels pretty painful right now.
This weekend, I spent more time teaching John to cook and bake. Saturday we made cheese muffins, and today we made a delicious pork roast and homemade applesauce. I enjoy that, and he seems to, as well. There is not much more I can do. When the weather clears we will be back outside working again, and that should go far to improve my spirits.
I fully expect our struggle with the tide to continue for awhile, so I need to focus on what I can do to build my strength of mind. It will come, I am certain. LM and I are fortunate that our love and caring for each other is very strong. He goes out of his way to be concerned about me in all this.
On the up side, yesterday I finished another quilt top! I left LM and John to visit with John's maternal relatives and came home to the quiet of my home, and the sewing went so smoothly.
I also, spent a glorious hour in the sun warmed car by the ocean and had a great conversation with my sister. A Sunday luxury.
When I left LM's late this afternoon, I left my favorite bathrobe behind on his bed as it was made in to a nest for beautiful sweet Ms G....all cuddled, and I could not disturb the repose. I'm looking forward to some sleep right now. It is bitterly cold here tonight after a day of beautiful soft snowfall.
Peace and love to everyone.