I've moved to a tunnel, one that seems so far underground, sounds are so dim here, reflexes have become dulled, and sleep is disturbed continuously with bizarre dreams. I'm reaching, and searching in every corner for a way back to brightness and full alertness. When told I was in heart and kidney failure a week ago Monday, and would have to take a new medication, one that requires weeks (it better be only weeks) for adjustment, I had no idea it would require this move to the tunnel. At least we know the culprit that has weakened my heart and kidneys, albeit temporarily, that caused this state of affairs. Ultimately, I've only myself to blame, but pain from a knee needing replacement, and a lot of arthritis in my hands, feet, and hips, lead me to take one ibuprofen a day for many years. Rarely did I take more than one 200mg tablet, but overtime, it caused this toxic condition and now I am banished to the tunnel, with no pain reliever. Eight days in to the new medication, I am promised that my body should be adjusted within another week, at which point, I need to start another drug. UGH. I am so anti-this stuff. Ibuprofen has also caused me to have many ulcers in my stomach. Those are healing but not without considerable pain. WITH ibuprofen, I could walk easily, although being careful with my unstable knee, and I could function normally.
Meanwhile, I am able to carry the tunnel around with me, heavy as it may be, and I am managing to work my day job, as well as my all too frequent dog sitting. Thankfully, that comes to an end tomorrow for awhile. Each day I am exercising to some degree, and realizing that I do have a little more strength now that some of the stress is off my heart and kidneys.
Out of all this has come a lot of good, though, and I am grateful to know, and be able to take the action necessary. With the arrival of some Spring days coming soon, I am planning to welcome the sun and flowers with a clearer head and stronger body. I have a great new co-worker at the office and look forward to each day.
Wishing you all a beautiful day.