Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Of late, I have allowed an enemy to rent some space in my body and soul. FEAR has paid me a visit. He is about to be evicted, as I know, deep in my heart, he is not a good friend and has very bad intentions where I am concerned. He has led me down the path of obsession about my future, where I will live, etc. I know it is the plight of many women who live alone, and face not being able to work full-time much longer. I see the crossroads ahead and have no idea what will happen, have fought with my "friend" fear constantly about what to do, and there are still no answers. Fear's eviction is in process, but there remains the fact that I must find some course of pro-action for my future. I've exhausted almost all avenues that I can - visiting the local senior center for advice, researching information on line, and reading as much as I can. Brick walls are looming in front of me. My tennant brought along his friend depression and he's caused me quite a few black days and nights. They both must go!! Easier said than done, but I will keep trying. I'm well aware that my plight is not near as bad as that of many around me, as I have LM (living with him is not an option for many reasons, although we do look out closely for each other), I have a little savings and a good 401k plan at work, and I have loving family. The answer will come, the answer will come, the answer will come, just not in MY time.
I have some nice photos to share and hope to find time this weekend - a LONG weekend - to post them.
Love to all!
PS: LM took this photo at his favorite fishing beach while I was in Colorado!